Happy Eid to you

Dearest readers, 

Happy Eid to all of the Muslim readers, Happy eid to my family and friends.. and happy eid to my love Khalid, there is no eid without you.. my eid started with a tear on my right cheek .

Dearest khalid, 

I hope you find this blog.. to at least know how i feel.. I can’t forget the nice times we had, the last month of fights is not us.. i miss you i love you and you will always be in my heart. I still don’t know the reason for you to be away, i don’t know why you don’t even want to talk to me.. maybe i had my mistakes and you had yours so lets forget about them and learn and move on together.. Khalid we have something no other couple has, we are adam and eve we can build a great future together. 

I’m waiting for you Khalid , i’m waiting for our reunion .. so please say happy eid.

Love, 

Zeena

Back to the Ground

For the past hmmm couple of months or more maybe , i’ve been away from the whole world, me and my husband (Khalid) were celebrating the new dress size i’m having these days, i can finally shop from every British shop, not yet from the fancy brand names but at least not plus sizes anymore. We’ve been shopping alot, hanging out alot and enjoying the company of our old friends here in Kuwait. I can say shopping is the best part of it all.. the rest gave me a bit of depression.

Khalid and I are very touchy people, we love to hold hands from time to time and admire each other when ever we feel like it and this got us in trouble in Kuwait, hanging out with our married friends isn’t helping at all, if i hold his hands they would say ” ga6a roo7ha 3aleeh” and when he is holding mine “3ala shino mayet 3aleeha, 3ayara” they don’t leave us alone. Khalid and I started to get hurt from what they are saying and we started to go out on our own again and he started to change. My husband used to be very romantic and makes me feel like his priority’s in life, today after months in Kuwait he has other priorities than his wife, he have to call his friends instead of talking to his partner, he has to cancel our dates because he can’t tell his friends he’s going out with his wife or they would make fun of him, and when he is with them he can’t talk to me because they wont stop teasing him.

Today his list of tasks everyday starts with his job, his friends, his family, his free time relaxing from his social life, then home to eat and sleep and maybe his wife. We are not talking to each other anymore, i wake up earlier than him, i sleep after him, we sleep next to each other, and each of us has his own life away from the other, its just the house that is bringing us back together despite the fact that no communication ever happens behind the doors nor romance. Our weekends are in our family’s house and usually men are separated from women as so i am with Khalid, on our friends wedding, we were separated too, in our gyms too. Nothing is bringing us back together.

After a long thinking i decided to step on my pride and do something to bring us back together so i sugested we go out on a date, just me and him in a private place … due to finance issues our private place was his car, we met there and cruised around the whole country. During that time i thought finally we can hold hands and be together in one car without having to go to two different places after words.  We started to talk and talk and talk and laugh for less than 15 minutes until his friends started to call every single minute, then his work, then again his friends and over and over and over … whats more annoying that those friends are usually his female friends, once they know he is out with me they make all kinds of jokes about us.

We couldn’t enjoy our time, or i couldn’t enjoy my time, he was on the phone and i was on his chest… until i got tired from sitting and we went home and fell asleep without saying anything to each other again. He was tried from talking on the phone, and i was tired from roaming around the country for 3 hours listing to his friends chat about their boyfriends, jobs etc.

Now I gathered my self and decided to let my emotion aside and start focusing on my own life, get my masters, find me a decent job, enjoy my weightloss process , meet my friends and make newer ones, enjoy my hobbies and let our relationship take its own path in either having us back together or grow apart.  Life is too short to be wasted like that.

Because of that I’m back to write my stories, back to the kuwaiti life style and i shall never be away again.. nothing is worth it.

Back to Weight loss

Current weight: 82 Kg

Target weight: 80 Kg – slow targets at a time..

Real Target: 60 Kg

Starting Weight: 103 Kg

Starting date with this new diet : Jan 29th, 2008

Nutritionist and Dietitian : my Jobless obese friend

Lifestyle: 30 minutes full body workout, 30 minutes 90 days plan, 30 minutes stretching

I don’t believe my eyes … it has been 5 months now and i’ve lost more than 20 kilos on judy’s very easy weight loss plan !!! i can’t believe my eyes, i can’t believe my size .. i am size 16 now i used to be size 20 , even though judy her self she is still wearing size 18 , but hey it is working for me better than it is for her hehehehehe i love you judy .. and i love my tight , fit body.

People shut up i am a size 16 now hehehehe i don’t look obese anymore .. and they call me CHUBBY !

The last time i posted something my target weight was 90.. look at me now .. my target weight is 80 !! , ten kilograms less

Judy Abbott, Thank you for helping me and changing my life. I can’t wait until i’m size 10, weighting 60 kilo grams without flabby skin which you managed to take off.

Dear readers,

I am a successful biggest loser heheheehehehe.. wait for my pictures soon

lets all cheer Judy , if it wasn’t for her, i would’ve been still running from one nutritionist to the other finding a suitable way to lose weight.

Love you all.

Zeena.

Back In Kuwait

And here i am back to the country of Happy people with no positive words to hear, Rich people with cheap mentalities, Good family names with bad attitudes.

That’s how my first week in Kuwait is. My friends have changed no one cared to even call, my family have changed they don’t say anything happy, and whenever i am out of the house i would see old friends run to them to say hi until i see them giving me their back and leaving.

Today i stopped greeting anyone on the streets because i am sure they are seeing me , i make sure they see me.  My brothers don’t respect me anymore specially in front of my husband, when ever i say something they would make fun of my believes and my opinion even if its right, we were teasing each other alot in the past but never hurt anyone of us, today the teasing is having a different meaning in this country.

From teasing to manner, people lack manners in this country, no one is respecting the law, no one is respecting older people, no one is respecting the fact that this handsome man is walking with his wife or this women is with another MAN! and the worst part is when someone helps you and you thank him/her aaah !!! since when thank you because a flirt!!!

What happened to you people ? Why have you all changed ? Why are you all rude and disrespectful? Aren’t you all calling for the name of islam and its manners !! show us something from that holy book if you are truly Moslem’s not ass kissers!

I’m all paranoid now, i’m scared to be alone or let my husband go to his friends alone ! gosh what happen to those people!

Week 8: Emotional Eater

Current weight: 92 Kg

Target weight: 90 Kg – slow targets at a time..

Real Target: 60 Kg

Starting Weight: 103 Kg

Starting date with this new diet : Jan 29th, 2008

Nutritionist and Dietitian : my Jobless obese friend

Lifestyle: 1 hour Cardio, Packing , 20 min stretching, 35 min yoga

For the Past three weeks i haven’t been keen with my workout and i had couple of regional changes in my life, we will be moving to Kuwait soon and instead of doing my one hour of cardio I’ve been packing our stuff and beautiful memories here, emotionally I’m not ready to go home but we have to.

I have mixed feelings about this move i want to go to Kuwait and meet my friends whom been sending me tons of e-mails saying how badly they miss me, but i know once i step my foot there none of them will even call, i know none of them will even show up unless i call them all and this time I’ll do what Judy did, i wont call anyone. I don’t know what happened to Kuwaitis and hospitality truly people change. From the family side, i know they will just come visit once I’m there and that would be it, i wont hear from them again… !

Its obvious i am in a bad emotional phase, i don’t want to leave my happy peaceful life here away from all the political crap and the shallow conversations about how people are even if i don’t want to know about them. And this is making me crave more chocolates and sweets , I’ve been crazy with petite pour and crazy with cookies !

At first Judy -my weight loss friend/planner- let me eat as much as i feel like to let me get suffocate with the sugary taste, it worked for a week then after that week i craved them again, so she gave me all kinds of herbal teas with cinnamon and honey to drink when ever i craved a piece of sugar – and that’s not you hubby – it worked for three days then i ate sweets with the tea LOL! then my smart friend gave me a great way to lessen my sweetness intake .

For every bite of sugar/chocolate/cookie i should have a small fruit, for every spoon of dessert i have to have a small fruit, at first i ended up having 5 kiwis and 10 strawberries, Today i had a Banana, a Kiwi and no chocolate at all, she turned my addiction toward chocolatey dessert into the need of fruits which is healthier and balances the flavours on my tongue.

Thank you again Judy, life hasn’t been greater. And you are the only reason worth going to Kuwait.

Bio-Oil

Like every normal person  i do have white stretch marks, I saw the last commercial on bio oil that would make your stretch marks disappear, i was very happy i tried it all over my body.The oil smelled really good and was absorbed so quickly and left very soft skin behind .

After one weeks of use, the old one 1.7 cm line of white stretch mark on my right shoulder became 4 cm long and 0.5 cm wide. The two 5 cm lines next to my belly botton became more than 7 lines of each side branched like a twig and double their length.

Regardless of  the great depression I’m feeling specially that there is nothing to treat white stretch marks, why on earth would a stretch marks treatments would make them worse?

I used it after reading about it on their website and this review 

Week 5

Current weight: 94 Kg

Target weight: 90 Kg – slow targets at a time..

Real Target: 60 Kg

Starting Weight: 103 Kg

Starting date with this new diet :  Jan 29th, 2008

Nutritionist and Dietitian : my Jobless obese friend

Lifestyle: 1 hour Cardio, 20 min stretching, 35 min yoga

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I’ve been 5 weeks on Judy’s -my friend who is helping me lose weight-  weight loss plan, as it seems it is working very well with me,  i have lost one kilo in one week,  i like it , I’ve been eating every thing i love from chocolates to French fries, ice cream to haystack salad and still losing weight without being hungry, or having cravings to my favorite foods or even have the feeling of ” why everyone is able to eat anything they want and everything is a no to me”  .

Today her laid back system has been changed, before when ever i crave a chocolate, i would eat a bite of it, drink water, wait for a while or go work out then i would take another bite .. at first  i used to eat the whole bar, but after couple of times a bite would do it for me and i don’t feel like buying chocolates when ever i see them , even if eat it i don’t feel attached at all, i even started to eat fruits instead.

Judy didn’t let this pass.. now since i started to have these cravings switch from fatty foods and rich in sugar to more less tasteful food.. she changed my eating plan..

Early in the morning:

When i wake up for morning prayers, i would drink 2-4 glasses of warm water almost 1 liter

Breakfast:

I start my breakfast with any kind of fruit with a cup of milk .. then a cup of water

After i get dressed and ready to leave, i would eat anything i feel like “eggs, waffles, a sandwich” with the suggested portion for every type of food.. i should talk about that later.
Snack: if hungry i would have water  – ofcourse- if i had craving for something sweet then i would have from 3-5 dates OR if my cravings were something salty i would have carrots, celery or cucumbers

Lunch: a piece of protein, 3/4 a cup some carbs, 1 1/2 cup greens  and any kind of juice with less than 3 grams of sugar and less than 80 cal.

Snack: yogurt, a fruit or three bites of any cravings

Dinner: a piece of protein (fish or turkey) , 1/2 a cup carbs, 2 cups of greens

Dinner should always be before 7 pm .

But on Fridays, breakfast will be a pomegranate.

My desserts should be dates or fruits (2 pieces per day)

I’M HAPPY !

Ready for easter

Current weight: 95 Kg

Target weight: 90 Kg – slow targets at a time..

Real Target: 60 Kg

Starting Weight: 103 Kg

Nutritionist and Dietitian : my Jobless obese friend

Lifestyle: ACTIVE

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It has been 24 days.. lost 5 Kilograms.. still following up with Judy’s weight loss life style, with 1800 Calories, 15 grams of fat per day, 60 grams of carbs per day, two servings of fruits a day, three-5 cups of vegetables per day…

Workout: 30 minutes cardio every day, 3-4 times group workout  as in water exercise, yoga and stretching.

I’m happy ..  eating everything i need .. and enjoying life without having the ma7rooma feeling, that i’m any less from other thin girls who can eat anything they want..

On the emotional side of this happiness, husband is loving the touch of my skin and the glow in my eyes. I’ve noticed with the fruit intake and vegetables my skin is clearer and brighter as well as my eyes..  but i have to admit recently i haven’t been going to the gym, just doing the normal indoor crunches and weight lift that Judy gave me as well.

For now Happy Spring and Happy Easter.

P.S. if you have any questions please feel free to ask if you want to join me and lose some weight that would be wonderful.

Happy Happy Joy Joy

Current weight: 99 Kg

Target weight: 90 Kg – slow targets at a time..

Real Target: 60 Kg

Starting Weight: 103 Kg

Nutritionist and Dietitian : my Jobless obese friend

Lifestyle: ACTIVE

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After the short introduction, all i can say i am happy to do this weight loss program with my friend, it is a great feeling to lose weight with someone close and someone you trust .

In my experience with weight loss and diets are brutal, one day i am happy and energetic, the other i am feeling down and depressed because the scale isn’t moving and so tried from all the work out.

Now with the new life style provided from my weight-loss expert who is OBESE at the moment things seems to be on the happy lane .. working out is not painful anymore , it is fun and energetic. Not eating certain things doesn’t need Lot of self torturing thoughts of “i should have a bite” “no if i had a bite i wont resist”

“stop don’t eat” ” look at that skinny gal” ..etc today i can happily say “No thank you i don’t want to eat this chocolate” without having second thoughts or cravings for a week after.  Or if i was craving something i would happily eat some of it and stop after couple of bites because there is no such a thing as -you can’t eat a bite- as what Dr. Atkins claimed in his book “A bite is a kiss of failure” that’s not true, this little bite gave me the feeling that i can eat what ever i want, but i can’t pig out on food because of many reasons that i already believe in.

From my believes food is for energy, for our organs to function well, for our brain to send its chemistry all over my body, just like making love, or cooking Rice -nice way to put it- it you do it too little it will never cook, or your partner will never get aroused, but if you over do it you will kill the romance and ruin the rice.

I really can’t stop thanking my friend for helping me out, what she is doing to me is great, I’m happy within my own skin, eating small meals and RICH ones too, having a cup to 2 cups of salad per meal, and a soup to start my meal with.  Drinking plenty – i mean  ALOT- of water, cold and warm BOTH are important, having a 30 minute cardio every morning and yoga or Pilate’s every other evening, she recommended swimming, i didn’t do that yet.. but i will soon. Taking my multivitamin dosage daily from two servings of fruit, two servings of milk products and i can still have a bar of Sneakers the regular size.

Yes, i’ve been eating all kinds of the deserts i love, cheese cake, chocolates, muffins.. you name it. But, i have to drink something warm before i start eating any of those yummy things – caffeine free drinks-  i went with warm water, green tea my favorite then before taking any bite i have to take three deep breaths eat a bite, then another six deep breaths , then nine deep breath. it really made me stop pigging out on those foods. I even eat french fries the exact same way.

The new lifestyle is LOVELY.

Simple techniques to happy weight loss.

I LOVE YOU FRIEND

Fittness here i come

Hello Dear Readers,

Sorry for being away and busy and out of shape! The last is true, i haven’t been eating well or even working out.

Today I am 100 KG , size 16 American and ready to rumble again.

Breakfast: Cereal with milk and 2 pears or 1 orange

Lunch: 1/4 a cup starchy food, 1 1/2 cups vegetables , 3/4 a cup protein (chicken, fish or meat)

Snack: An apple or Banada

Dinner: 1/2 rice, 1 1/2 vegeis and fish

Work out : 30 min. walk in the morning, 30 min walk before dinner.

Water:2 Liters

My Dietitian.. my dearest friend Judy Abbott.. I wonder why she doesn’t lose weight though She promised me i will be 95 by mid march .. so lets see. She made me join this SITE to keep my food diary and calorie, sugar and fat counting… and she was right it is a hell great site, i’m so addicted to it, its the only page on my blackberry, even when i drink water i add it to the diary on this site.

Not only that, she introduced me to the Stool Chart … i know it sounds disgusting.. but it is true, as much as i hated her for the chart, as much as i’m in love with her when i need to go

Thank you judz.. waiting for the results.

I hope she doesn’t kill me for mentioning her name :S